My best friend sat across from me in a Mexican restaurant and told me how much I deserved love, repeating it until I would actually listen to her and absorb what she said. It wasnвЂ™t till I was almost 25, in the midst of grief for so much, that I really began to even try. I couldnвЂ™t imagine what I would do with a love like that, I couldnвЂ™t imagine deserving that kind of love IвЂ™d rather have died alone than risk what could go wrong with real, true love.

It sounds like I was bitter for someone in her twenties, a baby really, but donвЂ™t be fooled: I was scared. This song is epic in its instrumentation, but mostly in JennyвЂ™s big open voice singing about this huge love, a love I couldnвЂ™t even fathom existing, let alone for me. This has been the song IвЂ™ve carried with me for years like an albatross around my neck, the song that I skipped over in the car because it made me angry and sad all at once. I was happy that it went well, happy for my friends, but I also knew that I didnвЂ™t believe in a word that I sang. I made my way to the bar, ordered a stiff drink, and took it with me to the bathroom where I drank it quickly in a stall, leaning against the door. I clung to the microphone for dear life and closed my eyes while I sang, not aware it was over until everyone started clapping.

When they asked me if I would sing this song for their first dance, I was flattered and terrified how could I do such a song justice when the original set such a high standard? Regardless, I kept it together and it went off without a hitch. They threw together a small but lovely wedding in a few weeksвЂ™ time with everyoneвЂ™s help. They were around my age at the time, 21 or 22, and in a move shocking to all of their friends, they not only decided to keep the baby but to get married. So letвЂ™s take a loan and IвЂ™ll put it down on a house in/a place weвЂ™ve never livedДЄbout five or six years ago two friends of mine, who I havenвЂ™t really seen since then, found themselves accidentally pregnant. Rilo Kiley - вЂњI NeverвЂќ from More Adventurous

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